coz
- people don’t like my tech crap
- i can’t write stories
- i ain’t going anywhere
- i ain’t reading anything
- i am not objecting to things
- i can’t create great fattas
- i am not at some new place
- i ain’t gaming
- friend’s aren’t visiting
- i don’t talk to anyone
- no day is special
- all lotds are going in google reader shared itmes
- gse is still in use.
coz its a fucking plain cold life.
moments that
i would like to forget completely about.
but will forever regret about.
its a difficult feeling, different feeling.
the uncertainty is even more killing.
its hard to live in doubt.
its sick when i try to think optimistically.
its horrible when i assume the worst.
i could look back at my life
and laugh about most terrible moments.
but not anymore.
it shouldn’t have happened.
i don’t even know who to say sorry to.
had i believed in god,
it would have been relaxing to talk to.
what to do, when one can’t answer the questions rising in his mind.
just can hope to learn a lot from it.
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based upon a nightmare, which was unfortunately real.
i have no major secrets in life, but this one will probably remain for a long time. until i learn to laugh about it.
PS: The post was kept private till Sep 2nd.
just another day of my life.
not how i had planned for it from long. with time the plans faded away.
i did disappoint a few school and college friends, whom i had orally invited on this date. sorry guys. next good date is not expected to come very soon.
yea… finally. Have very few public conveyance facilities over here in gurgaon, so its necessary now.
started taking my motorbiking lessons. knowing biking helped to keep rolling in few minutes. having lil trouble with gears, but will be fine in few days.
my previous attempt was couple of years back with help from Manjeet and Vidit. This time my instructor is Rajan ( Rajat’s bro ). Hey Vidit, I can switch to 1st gear now, smoothly.
