met her on 22nd. I reached Solan at 5am. I had bath in a hotel and recieved her at bus stand. She was there by 8am. We went to her friends home. We had good time together. Had our lunch in a hotel, and stayed together till 4pm. It was supposed to be a 2 hrs meeting, keeping in mind her exams starting from 25th. And there was a big drama about that just 2 days before. And now she was not letting me go. She was crazy. After long time we were together for so long at a comfortable place. I guess 3 years. After long time i was able to comfortably hug her. A wonderful time together.
then we were in touch by phone.
But on 2nd June, something went wrong. I made a big mistake from her point of view, though I was nothing great from my point of view. It disturbed her a lot. It was worst time to disturb her coz it was her exam time. I did not intend to disturb her but it just happened.
After unintentionally disturbing her so badly, I decided not to call her again, till her exams were over. And it was really difficult to control, but hoping that i dont want to disturb her more during her exams i didnt call her. The construction work at home kept me busy so helped me pass time at home.
She called me on 14th, and I came to know that what i did was the worst i could do to her. All along she waited for my phone like crazy and didnt do anything good in exams. According to her these 12 days were the most difficult time of her life. She felt that i have left her. She went through stages like not marrying in life etc etc. I feel so sorry for giving her this time. I again breaked my promise (to myself) of ‘never hurting her’. Can’t go back and change the past. 
We talked only once or twice after that, and then we had some problem with std line in our exchange, and also was in the marriage.
Met her again on 20th, while returning back. I reached Solan at 2pm. Had lunch with her in a hotel Hemani. And left the place at 4pm.
Her exams were over on 18th and she went home on 21st. She will come back to college on August first week. Till then i will be really lucky if i could hear her voice even for a second.
The circumstances are still very bad for us, as my close relative told me how everyone looks at our relation. We have two major problems. First she is my cousin sister, second she has a very negative image about her habits etc. The second is more stronger than the first. And yeah, third problem which we will need to face in future is that I am manglik[1].
[1] manglik person can only marry another manglik person, in hindu dharm. And if not so then the non manglik one will die soon after the marriage.
