smr’s blog

… again after a long time.

Love
long long time since i mentioned. 7 months since i met her(for 2 hrs only). 4 years since i spent time in her arms. 3 hours since i talked to her. some-times we wonder how are we managing it and life seems so difficult. other-times seems so casual. thats the problem of dating a close relative in a small town. everyone knows you.
if one can’t be in each others arms, then whats the purpose of being in love in 20’s. would you start a relation knowing this is how its going to be ? never do it, if you are not an asshole like me. i tell you how it feels. you see couples, and wish you too were together. you close your eyes and try to feel her, but fk its been so long that you can’t even visualize her face. it sucks so much that its better to stay single and be a flirt.
my turning casual in love is worrying her a lot. she is still crazy.. much like she was in starting. i love her a lot. but i don’t feel crazy. probably coz now i’m much more confident, and not afraid. i try not to reveal, but she is smart enough to figure it out. also i’m not emotional anymore. i’ve become so fking heartless. it all hurts her. i don’t know what to do.
our life is so much like married, but apart. ..say a soldier on border.
she has picked habit of calling me ‘pen da takka’. sounds cute.
she is on vacations at home for next one month. wont be able to talk. miss ya jaan.

Life
i am becoming so fking silent observer. i need a break. didnt take vacation since nov05. planning to go to home in july. fking icvgip got postponed, hope doesnt affect my vacations planning.
on relations. got big so dedicated post(next one).
from some time i was thinking to practice a change. will start it from today.

Fifa
do i care?

Browsing
spending limited/no time on browsing. even taking 5 days to read PGs articles after i open them. hey guyz! do send me few interesting articles. Hey Jaya, come back to internet. you use to send nice links.

BarCamp
BarCamp Hyd2. Afraid i will be on vacations.

don’t know why i am blogging like next post will come after months. hope not.

And can anyone tell me where do i go to sue the world. it so fking.

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