smr’s blog

[ My blogging frequency (in blogs per month) from May 04 to March 05 ]

The average of last 5 months is only 5 posts per month. Thats poor.

I want to blog more. Its my diary. my only diary. I started it to record my life and my thoughts. I don’t want to stop recording it. Then why am i sucking at blogging.

Have i ran out of thoughts / ideas ?
I fear so. I didnt use to be with blank mind like this ever before. I am no more able to make opinions. I have become a silent observer. No matter how things are moving around, they matter so less to me. Nothing hurts anymore, and nothings overwhelms me anymore. I wanted to be like this. But i fear it.

A growing readers list of this blog made me conscious. I can now no longer write any crap like i use to in old days when i started blogging. i use to blog about the age game i played, the work i did, the phone conversation i had and every damn thing. i had no readers. for more than half a year only a few close friends occasional read my blog. as my readers started increasing i started getting more conscious. and slowly my diary transformed into magazine. i started writing articles. i cared about expectations of my readers while writing. i forgot that this was a diary and missed to record last few months of my life.

But no more.
This is My blog-cum-diary. I don’t care who reads it, and what they like. Not any more. I am not going to address anyone in my posts anymore. they are for me. I can/will still write articles i think are of any importance or carries an idea.

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