hurting her
on 10th Feb
She wanted to talk to me, and I had an dinner appointment with Khare and his parents. So it was really not possible to keep on talking to her, or ignore the appointment. Doesnot make sense. She kept on saying “pls, I want to talk”. And i had to cut it. Though it was not abruptly, I did say, sorry i have to, bbye, 3 , 2, 1, love ya. But she just couldnot bear it, and… tears down her cheeks. She did know that I can’t call, but she just doesn’t want to understand.
Worst thing was i didnot even call on 11th. I went for Black at night (prime time of our talk).
So i did know that she is going to screw me. Today too I was too late. I called at about 11:30pm. And now I was thinking of some strong excuse, but didnot really want to lie. So after calling her I just said I love you.
She did not screw me, instead she was silent. What kills me most. Claimed that I dont care like I use to. There use to be days, when I never let her down. And now I am busy with many other things.
It took me some while to tame her. But then she was okey. Sweet like always. Crazy like always.
Asked me to post the card/letters/snaps asap.
