they all will leave soon
she was asking me “How do you feel about all your friends will leave soon, and you will be alone there.?”
Well she herself was senti (a lot actuall) that my friends will be leaving soon, and i will be staying back alone (almost). She was relating it to her life, that how bad does it feel in such circumstances. And also that she knows lots of my friends.
I said ” I dont know. I am not feeling anything.”
She asked some ten times again, and i said “Okey, if i will ever feel bad, i will immediately let you know.”
She was thinking so much as she’s recently talking to Jaya, met some of my friends (the shimla trip), and my contact persons if i am not available( lifting my cell 
), and keep on asking me things about my friends. More than me, she keeps talking about my friends these days, where is everyone placed, their girl friends and hell lot of stuff.
I dont know if i’m wrong or what. But i never missed anyone in my life.
I joined hostel in 6th, and never sat and thought about home. Not even at the worst times in hostel life. Though my home was pretty close to hostel (some 70kms), I went home only in holidays, (rarely otherwise). Ya but in holidays i stayed back for some extra one month. Once i got to know that Final exams have started in school and then i rushed to school with some medical certificates. I took vaccations of more then one months extra above normal vaccations of 2 and half months that time.
Coming back to me. From here(iiit), I rarely ring to home. Sometimes after one month. Mom always screws me for it. I always want to call home on time, because it gives them so much happiness. I too feel good after talking to home. But I still dont call. Reason bring I dont miss them. It rarely happens to me that I will think about my home, my parents, my brother or anything at home. I love them a lot, but i dont miss them. There is something wrong with me. I dont want it to happen. Why I never missed anyone in my life. Why ?
I never told her. If I will ever tell her, she will kill me. That I dont even miss her. I love her a lot, more than anything but I dont miss her. Though there are some special times when i miss her. Especially while watching a senti movie, or a romantic scene. But thats momentarily.
I just cant miss anyone. Its something i have in my nature. I cant force myself to miss anyone. It cant happen.
I thing i have exaggerated the topic. In summary I rarely think about peoples ( in my past) and about the times we spent together. And I feel bad about it. It doesnt mean that I forget people I have met. I remember all of my friends. But I dont think about them, I dont miss them. I dont remember myself missing any school friend. Is it bad, or is it genuine ? I dont know. help me out.
I find an explaination for my this attitude as my attitude to enjoy the moment. I completely live in the moment, without thinking about the past or future.
Today we had the first farewell party ( from a group of juniors to a group of seniors). Well I’m not going but i was inclued in the party (ask them the reasons). I think I should be the host for such parties. . Anyway who hates parties.
Hey friends, she has said Hi to all of you, and that she will miss you all.
And I will try my level best to miss you all. But I will always love you all ( I dont have to try for that).
